To that little voice

Why do you always have to put me down even when I know I am amazing? I just have to keep reminding myself that. No more can’t only yes I cans. Why do you make me overthink things that I don’t get why I am overthinking? The little voice is encouraging sometimes because it helps me work harder for things. I need to control this voice more to not let it affect my life if I listen of course I can’t do things because I am listening. If I like something I have to pursue it. Stop overthinking it.


Past Memories


Been really thinking lately of the past….used to cry through the hard times some people say its not good to remember these but I think its good just don’t agonize in them because life goes on. Remembering when I used to cry myself to sleep. A lot of pain. Thoughts at the time why did they die? Did I do enough? Could I have done more? Should I have made more an effort? Should I just stay in this bed and do nothing forever?

I remember music and friends were really by my side and I found out who truly were my friends and cared.

I am listening to as I am thinking:

William Fitzsimmons I don’t feel it anymore-

William Fitzsimmons So this is goodbye-

Pure bless





So asked what people believe happiness is and got some unique answers. This was really interesting because I found out so many people have different perceptions on what is happiness. Personally I believe happiness is being able just to be yourself without trying to change anything to be at peace, Not feeling alone, and loving and being loved.

Happiness is….

“Happiness is being with my girl.”(I am the girl)

“Well I always used to say that happiness is like a place that you visit from time to time. But you don’t get to stay there. Working on my art, spending time with my boyfriend. Talking to my friends and playing d&d.” (dungeons and dragons)

“I think happiness is self acceptance, Accepting yourself for good and bad. Happiness is when you feel love and full of self worth”

“Of course as many come to know happiness is defined very differently for each person they may associate it with from other emotions like joy, pleasure or even the other spectrum destructive natures like rage, pain and fear (to oneself, others or even items “My kids make me happy, my being able to paint makes me happy”). This is all fine, I will never judge anyone else’s experience. Whatever the case I suppose to most human beings it is to be “satisfied” perhaps with trouble in their life (love, money, loneliness, appreciated) and I think people are “happy” when something or an action/thought solves that issue. I suppose someone might define their happiness therefore by being helpful, content or spiritual etc.”

“To me however I am completely Happy (and therefore define Happiness this way)when I have absolute TRUE peace of mind. That is (to me) a state of complete balance of all emotions in a sense feeling everything and nothing, knowing all that love soaks and all that despair drains and understanding and yet remain fully functional and accepting if you can relate to that notion. All so that I may help and progress with all that Life/The Universe/Higher Powers bring my way as an agent with a grin that would challenge a feline from Cheshire.”

“Happiness is being content with yourself, appreciating the little moments, being grateful. Also being loving and being loved.”

“Happiness is a choice! It’s about surrendering control, trusting, having faith that things will all turn out as they are meant to. It’s about being not doing and about living from a place of love. Being grateful, genuine and accepting you just as you are!”

“I think happiness is self acceptance, Accepting yourself for good and bad.
Happiness is when you feel love and full of self worth.”

“To love and being loved. It’s cheesy.”

“Happiness is freedom. Having the ability to do what you want, when you want and with whom you want, while helping others achieve happiness!”

“Happiness is amazing and it’s a unique feeling. Music, creative writing, art.”